new year, new start....

stress-ed out..

2008-09-25T06:43:00.000-07:00

i decided to blog 2dae is because i juz quarrel with a fren recently.
it affected me larh, my gd fren lei!!!
but after thinking about wad to do, i decided on something.
i know wad im gna do about this.
i might hate myself if i go on with it.
people may sae im stupid cuz im doin it cuz of a small thing.
but i hv decided it on myself.
its for everybody's own gd.
gtg,
bye~

2008-09-19T06:59:00.001-07:00

its been a long time since i blog.

i m gona blog is also because i need to say it out but i duno how to..
i didnt do tt well for my mid-year exam.
had 3 Us 4 my H2.
i need to get at least an average of all Bs to get promoted which i find it veri impossible.
so, i tink i will retain again nxt year in MI.
i deserve it aniwae, so ya.

besides tt, i realli nd to sae tis.
i realli wna thank tis certain sum1 4 actualli breakin me apart.
i hv already decided to give it another chance but u decided nt to accept it.
u were alwaes there when i needed u n also a veri gd fren to.
i duno wad to sae to u also.
we all gave u so much trust n this is what we got in return.
among all, i trusted u th most n i got bck nth in return.
its ok, i dun nd u.
but im a fair person, i will still give chance.
i dun hold grudges unless th person realli did me wrong.

i cant tink of th best tink 4 me now.
i was happy when i did it but after awhile since i last did, i feel th lost.
i duno if i shud regain tt lost or juz let it be lost.
i dun wan to disappoint ani1.
i rather be th wan to be look-ed down upon tt anibodi else.
it has been fun doin it but i dun feel ani sense of it flowin in me animore.
i m seriously in a dillemma nw.
exams are comin n i cant focus much.
i tried to 4get, but then i rmbr again.
i shud try to focus on my exams nw.
i will c how after my exams.

aniwae, being in MI has brought me alot of joy.
throughtout th journey, i met frens.
frm normal to becomin gd frens
haha.
sumtimes, when im with them, i forget bout all my problems.
i dun lyk to show them, i juz kip quiet.
tts how i m.
tts y i dun make much frens.
its ok 2 me as at least i still hv sum frens whom i can still turn to 4 help.

this is th place where i can let out all my feelings.
i wun sae but i can type it out.
it can sumtimes make me feel better.
well, tts all 4 nw.
till th nxt time.

bye~

2008-01-15T09:32:00.000-08:00

death note 2

light

well, nothing much really happen. ever since i entered SE i have been busy, doing this and that. i didnt have much time to go out with my friends. most of my free times are spend in toa payoh. even thought its kinda tough in the beginning but im startin to adapt to the changes in my life. since its for my own good i might else well go for it. todae, my downline came down. i was like damn happy man. my first active downline. but once the problem with her dad is solve, i can start to train them. but i have already started. i now need to find another 3 more downlines and i will be damn happy. and i mean 3 stable wants. well, nvm about tt. aniwae, for a start, 2008 has been going on well. i juz miss the times during the beginning of 2007. that time i got to know a good buddy. but i did a stupid thing that i regreted so much. hes really one of a kind. anibody, and i really mean anybody who is his friend must really remember not to lose him as a friend. i learn my lesson. now, i do not believe in best friends animore. my belief will only re-appear after i achieve my ultimate dream.

2008-01-10T09:54:00.000-08:00

hmmm, to start off, i was feeling very down 2dae. didnt have th mood to do anything. but luckily i had my upline 2 share my downs with. dun wish to tok bout it, will tok bout it another dae. bye~

me n hui qian

me n xuan yin

me n norvin, my sideline

us at genting, arena of stars

'R' Division

signing off for nw~

2008-01-09T11:29:00.000-08:00

hmmm, guess wad? its been almost a year since i post on tis blog itself. i didnt want to cuz of some reasons. shall not mention it. well, tis past 2007 has nt been a good year for me. many bad than good things have happened to me. alot of changes i've been through tis whole year. i will tok bout it another day. basically, im juz glad tt i have found the best place for me to stay on now. want to know? ask me lorh, haha. i juz wish i could make it up to those people i have hurt. i know its never possible for it to ever happen but tt will forever remain as my wish and also my ultimate dream......

band camp was shiok arh.......

2006-12-23T04:24:00.001-08:00

my grp was beethoven
i actually was nt tt hapi at firz cuz gt no fren onli wen yan
then as tyme goes by, i made frens
i noe clarissa, christine, joyce, yiwei, gameliel, gong jing
dey where great peps

day1
report at 9am. we dun noe our dorm yet.
so we put our bag in the hall. had sectional. then combine.
played armenian. then had lunch. then i went 2 ava with fazli 2 colect my n level results.
YEAH! i pass. but nt tt gd arh. then had foot drill. nt bd. telematch was fun.
wad we had 2 do in the match was nt 2 laugh. game ic will make us laugh but we muzz control.
hehe. i almost laugh. had dinner, shower then declaration. 2dae was quite boring.

day2
woke up at 6am. den when 2 wash up. had another H2O. haiz. pt was damn tired.
but i enjoyed it. had 2 run 7 rounds around sports hall. wow.
had breakfast then grp discussion bout superband. we were still nt prepared yet.
after lunch was sectional n combine. armenian was nt bad. then its show time.
it was great. e other grps were great. mine was ohk... jamie sang well.
then we actualli showered, had dinner than watch mr holland.
tis my 2nd tyme watchin. then had H2O. then nite nite. me n naz had nite duty at 330am.

day3
woke up at 630am. wash up then as usual, had pt then breakfast.
we had telematch firz then of 2 the zoo. telematch was cool. "Hong Cai Mei Mei Heng a ayo"
haha. then i change 2 e tight fit grp tee. then briefin frm weiling. e zoo game was fun.
its juz tt sum foreigners r juz selfish. forget it. my face was all sunburn. hehe.
came back 2 skul n showered, then had dinner. then we watch the haunted apartments be4 enterin e haunted hse. i actualli had fun with it. it was nt scary. juz tt shockin. hehe.
slept at 4am. hehe. had fun 2 dae.

day4
woke up at 630am. same tink, H2O, pt then breakfast. we had foot drill after tt.
lixuan was there. but we march well. lunch. then setional at e double classroom.
its damn small. but it actualli fit all. but venue cahnge 2 ava room.
mr toh nv combine. he came late n tt he was at e clarinet section most of e tyme.
we had 2 clean instrument after tt. eeww. hehe. it was dusty.
shower, then dinner with sectionmates. we played sum games.
then my grp sang jingle bells, again, it was a last minute tink.
then we had 2 dress jamie up lyk an angel. we use props tt we could find.
it was a success, she does look lyk an angel, accept 4 tt wing.
exchange gift, move room, clean room, then had H2O.
had supper than stayed up till 4 2 chat with naz n eric. haha. 2dae was nt bad.

day5
yeah... woke up at 6am.
onli slept 4 2 hours. haha. had a great chat. had 2 move fast. wash up then had breakfast in e ava. then weiling told us 2 go 2 double classroom, dunnoe 4 wad. everybodi slept in e classroom.
hehe. feelin much awake after tt. when 4 combine. mr toh came late.
he straight away combine armenian. we played ohk. then he showed us tokyo kosei armenian.
wow. then prize giving. my grp was firz. then keep instrument then took our bag 2 general office. took band foto n grp foto. break camp liao. yeah!!!!